Adventures in baking 😁🍰🍴 #pecanpiewithchocolate #firsttimebakingapie #onlytookme26years #thanksgiving
I wanted so bad to have a good day today. I was in a positive mood. It was a gorgeous, rainy, “dreary” day; talk about cloud porn throughout the day & I was absolutely loving my backwoods drive to work in the morning. The Los Angeles forest is the MOST beautiful during/after a rain.
However work was absolute hell. I have reached my breaking point with Revi. There’s a reason she has burned so many bridges throughout the company. I cannot stand any further to be talked to like I’m an incompetent moron working with half a brain. That she feels the need to explain to me how labels need to be made to bag and tag parts. It’s not fucking rocket science you dumb cunt. Yes I do not have an engineering degree, but pretty sure I do have a BA & I know my way around Microsoft Word. I have more common sense then you do & my attention to detail I feel is more on point. I do not any in form of respect deserve the way she talks down to me ALL THE DAMN TIME.
Maybe because it’s my time of the month & my emotion for anger tends to be amplified. I think this happens because of my past, because of all those issues and circumstances that once rained down upon me in all of their fiery glory. Or maybe it’s because I had to clean up so many messes for other people & dealing with our customer’s stupid buyers for their companies that I essentially babysit explanations to just so one fucking thing can get done at snail speed no matter; like say have the correct prices on the 1st PO instead of having them need to send me a 4th one!
& our retarded accounting department that constantly expects me to do their job-going through a 26 page convoluted purchase order was really not on my agenda to figure out why the money doesn’t match the sales order only to have Melissa not even bother to wait for my response so she could send the 2nd 30% down invoice of which she did the initial one incorrectly in the first place because she doesn’t know how to do math….um so why did I waste 45 minutes of my time on that?!?!
But I am FUCKING SICK OF IT ALL! After Revi essentially blamed me for not starting a job for BE Aerospace that had a dock date of yesterday & then badgering me on the phone of what we need to tell their buyer as an excuse as to why we’re 2 weeks late even though their new dock date was 11/21. I gave my idea: we’re backlogged on FDM & couldn’t make the date. Simple to the point, they can’t fucking argue it. & after confirming with Kerry it’s not really a lie, there’s a ton of FDM orders in line to be made. However what does Revi say on the phone “Ummmm well, I don’t think that’s really a good excuse…” “I guess I’ll have to come up with something…” Me ::angry silence:: Needed to get off the phone immediately because I was about to cuss her ass out.
SO DONE. I don’t get paid enough to do the jobs of the engineers, accounting, shipping, admin & receptionist. If that’s the case add at least 5 more lengthy ridiculous words to my title, bump my salary & let’s call it a day. Otherwise take all this extra work I take on and shove it. I’m so done with this company; it’s run so ass backwards & if I didn’t have so many pending bills I need to attend to, I would have up & quit today. Sometimes I really wish I was one of the ones they would have laid off in May instead of Judith & April. At least I wouldn’t have to deal with all this bullshit anymore & I could actually have time to find a REAL career type job instead of this. I’m sick of people who do nothing likes sales associates be put on a pedestal while all of us production administrators in Valencia (minus Alex) bust our asses & then end up getting blamed for everything even if it wasn’t our fault to begin with. In the words of Kerry: "HAVE YOU SEEN MY PAYCHECK?!?!?!" DONE!
I am a millenial. Generation Y. Born between the birth of AIDS and 9/11. Give or take. They call us the global generation. We are known for our entitlement and narcissism. Some say it’s because we’re the first generation where every kid gets a trophy for just growing up. Others thinks it’s because social media allows us to post every time we fart or have a sandwich for all the world to see. But it seems our one defining trait is a numbness to the world. An indifference to suffering.
It’s been really hard as of late to stay positive. After losing my grandpa, Frank, in early October, Nicole this month, & learning of the deaths of other young people these last few months such as Matt, a high school classmate from Paraclete, my heart weighs heavy with sadness. Death has not been an event that has hit nearly as close to home in my past to the extent it now has in my present. I guess what entails with growing up is growing to know loss & mourning. My empathetic heart breaks to know families & friends cannot fully enjoy the upcoming holidays because pieces of them have departed with the beautiful souls that have left this earth & await all of us on the other side of eternity. If I could, I would give every last piece of me to every last person hurting right now to try & fill their voids. Life really is precious. And it is all too short. It is foolish to think that you will live forever. Death renews a perspective that I wish we could learn the lessons without the consequence. However life is a balance & I know that although it can be gut wrenching it is just a necessary component to the circle of life.
So in all cliché: Say too many I LOVE YOU’s. Give too many hugs & kisses. Smile everyday even if your heart is frowning. Laugh & learn to laugh at yourself. Don’t beat yourself up over small setbacks. You were born to make mistakes. Make them & then grow from them. Boost your ego, but remain forever humble in your successes. Enjoy the little things that make you happy. See the beauty in the world & all it holds. Touch base with people you hold close in your heart even if they are far in distance. And sever relationships if they no longer serve you on a positive note. Read too many books. Absorb too much “useless” knowledge & information, you never know when it can come in useful. Have meaningful conversations. Keep others names out of your mouth unless it is to speak of them in a high regard. Write old school love notes & thank you cards & make mixed CDs. Hold the door open for people. Always say please & thank you. Remember manners go a long way & do not go unnoticed. Work your ass off to achieve your dreams. And don’t let anyone belittle those dreams or passions of yours. However do not work so much that you forget to enjoy the fruits of your labor & let your life pass you by. Life was meant for living. Make a bucket list & follow through. Constantly add to your list & cross lines off once completed. If you want something badly enough work towards your goals, never make excuses. Encourage & uplift all of those around you, even strangers. The only time you should look down on someone is if you’re helping them back up on their feet. We are all on the same playing field, no one is above you, no one is below you. Socioeconomic status means nothing at the end of the day. Remember that. Give back to your community. Don’t trash the earth, don’t pollute the oceans. Adopt a stray. Help save a life or two; give blood, lend a shoulder to cry on, volunteer for a help hotline. Don’t expect someone will intervene in an emergency, BE that someone. Stand up against verbal, sexual & physical violence & abuse. Go out & vote. Be aware of ongoing politics & global events going on. Let people hear your voice, but do not forget to listen to theirs; we all want to be heard in this world. Pick your battles. Let go of the grudges & the anger- it’s not worth it. Travel to the unknown & places you might fear. Test your limits. Explore. Create. Indulge in moderation & then overindulge. Star gaze & catch as many sunrises & sunsets as you can. Let people in, break down your walls. Make every moment count. You might only live once, but if you do it right once is enough. 😊💖❤💛💚💙💜💋❌⭕
Today was a day to celebrate the lives of two young, beautiful souls that were called home too soon. They may be gone from this earth, but their memories will live on forever in the hearts of all they have touched.
I’ve know Nicole since she was born & have always considered her my little sister by association. I am extremely blessed to have had the opportunity to witness her growth from that adorable little girl always wanting to tag along with her big sis & I; to transforming into a gorgeous, generous, courageous, intelligent young woman. Nicole you are a beautiful soul. Not just in your looks. Not just in what you’ve said. Just in who you were. How you made an impact on all you have touched. “The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched-they must be felt with the heart.”-Helen Keller Just know that I will carry you forever in my heart my little Nicole-E-Ollie, my little Mini-Me ;) RIP Nicole “For death is no more than a turning of us over from time to eternity.” -William Penn May you & Robert rest in paradise together and watch over all of those that love you both. I love you forever and always 💜💜💜
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